Raven – Magic – OWN your power

Snake – Healing – You are a HEALER

Swan – Grace – APPRECIATE THE BEAUTY inside and all around you

So these seem pretty straight forward and what I need to hear today. I do need to honour my soul’s purpose more. I know I have all these things I want to achieve, maybe that I am meant to achieve and I haven’t achieved most of them as yet. I have a tendency to get distracted by the fun stuff in the world and in life, things that often don’t matter and definitely don’t help me get ahead in life. Like tweeting the golden globes yesterday, while obviously fun and all it didn’t help my writing get finished. It didn’t help me meditate and it didn’t help me teach the faeling child anything (except stop touching the computer but then again he didn’t seem to want to learn that)

I am a healer and the first thing I need to heal is myself. And I am working on it but I know I can work harder. I have good days and bad days. I need to have more good days, days where I like myself just that little bit more. Where I can see the beauty that is inside me, the beauty my friends and family obviously see and love. Sometimes it is hard to do. Especially at those times of the month when I am pre period so retaining that extra little chubbiness. (I nearly wrote chubby but decided that had far too many dodgy comments and I am not Ricky Gervais and can’t get away with dodgy erectile jokes)

I am enjoying working on Children of the Immortals and I am starting to see the themes in there. The messages and teachings I want to get out into the world. I think that has been my problem in the past the themes just haven’t been there or have been too hidden or too obvious. It is a fine balance and I think for once maybe I am going to get it right. I also need to realise that I am not writing this book for the prudes and unadvanced people who are going to freak out or get weird about some of the concepts I am conveying. They are not evolved yet enough to grasp it, well maybe next life people you can pick up my best selling writing and get something deep and meaningful from it. Or at least enjoy it as a good read.

I should be used to people not quite understanding me, I think and believe outside the box and that is cool and wonderful, I just need to stop caring what everyone else thinks and trying to be something I am not to fit in. It’s not me and if others don’t appreciate who I am truly am then I don’t really need them in my life anyway. I guess it’s the Leo in me that want to be loved by all and adored by many. But the Leo in me should also want them to adore me for me and not as someone else. So today’s mission be myself totally everywhere I go and communicate. Own my uniqueness, my power. Stand tall and shake my feathers for everyone to see. I hate pretending and editing myself to be more user friendly.

As Mika says Love Love ME!

Lynx – Discernment – LOOK BEYOND immediate appearance

Raven – Magic – OWN your power

Butterfly – Transformation – Get ready for a BIG BREAKTHROUGH

Now my big thing I’ve been thinking about the last few days is my appearance and fitness level. I have been doing more dancing and I feel great from it. It not only gives me exercise but it boosts my self esteem and makes me feel creative and dear I say it…sexy…

I love to dance, I don’t know why I don’t do it more. I should because I love it sooooo much. I have thought about starting my own classes. Goddess Within. Using all the different styles of dance I have learned over the years and just my intuitive movement. It would be about helping other woman get fit, have fun and be comfortable in their own body and their own movement. So many are embarressed to even sway to the music for fear of what others would think watching them. And I have become the same in many ways. I used to have no problem having a bit of a boogie in front of other people but now a days I would be too embarressed because of the way I look. So I guess that means before I can help any other person find their Goddess Within I need to find my own. So I need to actually make the effort and dance my way to health and happiness.

I am a dancer I know deep in my heart that is one of my gifts, one of the things I am truly good at. I have to accept that and own it. I need to transform myself before I can help anyone else be transformed.

So there we go..the push I need to get active and dance for real.

Timed that well, now its time for K to have a nap