Okay we have this one again. It’s not jumping out at me. Well I guess in some ways it is. I’ve been thinking alot about our next child. Feeling kind of odd the last few days with headaches, tiredness, dizziness, loss of appetite. Its all reminding me of being pregnant. I want another kid and I don’t want them too far apart. But I am so scared about it. Mainly the “can I cope” issues of having two children to look after and not having Al at home like he was for Kaeden. I know everyone copes but I don’t want to just cope. I want to have an awesome family with children that have the attention and support they deserve and still have time for me, and for Al.

I need to take my power as mother and run with it. I need to find the strength to do it. And accept that I can do it. If for no other reason than for my future child. I need to take the steps to prepare my body for it again (lose weight!)

I have the power to be a mother to more than one child. I have the power to be a great mother. I have the power to be mother and still not lose me!!