I know there is a lot of talk as to the validity of the books, if Anastasia truly exists. But I think that is somewhat beside the point. It is the wisdoms and truths discussed that should be of the most importance.

I find the books to be quite inspirational. And while I do not agree with every doctrine set forth, I believe that is still my choice.

I’m over three quarters of the way through it and I feel really good. I have been sitting in the lounge in the warm sunshine while Kaeden slept reading. I feel energised and filled through to the core with the warm glow of the sunshine and the words I have read. I have danced. I have written. I have thought. This is the way I want more of my days to be. I got up, checked my emails and then turned off my computer. I played with Kaeden and read when he did not want my attention. Then while he slept I read some more and as I said, danced, wrote, thought. And most of all I loved. I felt love for myself, I explored my love for others and for nature. If only I could remember how this feels and do it more often rather than being distracted by meaningless quizzes on facebook and earning non-existent coins on a game or talking to people who depress me, don’t understand me and really achieve nothing for my life, those “online friends” who really haven’t noticed that I am not online at the moment.

I know I am weak willed when it comes to most things of this technocratic world. I know I am lazy…finding it easier to grab a pie out of the freezer rather than heading outside to harvest a salad for my lunch. (Although I admit that is somewhat harder to do over winter). I choose to forget how good I feel when I do the things to make me feel good. I choose to forget how ill I felt after eating half a packet of chips. I need to take this warm feeling inside me now and remember it, cultivate it and strive to achieve it. I feel so happy and so alive right now doing the things I love to do. Why don’t I do them more.

My “instruction” to anyone who reads this today or any of the hundreds of tomorrows is to do something that fills you with light and warmth and do it. Be it reading, writing, taking a photo or hugging your child. Do it! And then keep doing it and keep finding the light and keep being you filled with light and warmth and love.

Dictionaries define bohemians as – A person with artistic or literary interests who disregards conventional standards of behaviour. The film ‘Moulin Rouge’ defined a bohemian as someone who values Freedom, Beauty, Truth and Love. The musical ‘Rent’ has a whole song and reprise dedicated to the concept (Click here to read the lyrics).

To me, Bohemian is all of the above and more. Bohemian is a state of mind. It is living for life, for Freedom, Beauty, Truth and Love, living for you, for everything you can be and all that the world can become.

There is no single all encompassing definition of any concept/theology/belief for differing people. We are all different and we exist in different ways. It does not take away from the truth any of us know or live by. And yes, you can disagree with that statement if you that’s how you feel….it would just be one small way we differ. There’s nothing wrong with that.

I am bohemian as I define it for me. (I can’t presume to define it for anyone else.) That is part of the bohemian truth I strive for.

Some would say I am not as I still live with creature comforts. I have a lovely house and lifestyle block. I have a car and nice clothes and I even have a piece of Swarovski designed jewellery. I have internet, I have Sky TV. I am not “slumming it” as some would say the true artistic bohemian does. But that does not change the things I truly value and strive for, balance and evolution among them.
At some stage maybe I will live a much simpler, rustic, good life and I may look back and say I was kidding myself that I could be a bohemian while still maintaining any sort of modern materialistic existence. But I doubt it.

I would love not to be reliant on material things; to be a truly evolved soul. I would love to not have any attachment to my Playstation Singstar games, my pretty shiny things, my favourite dressy top, but I do have attachment to these things for one reason. They help me express myself. Not define myself – I am still myself in all my glory without these things, but they do help me express my creativity, my uniqueness, my personality.

I love to sing even if I can’t do it in tune and Singstar allows an outlet for that love and a way to share it. My jewellery and my clothes are a reflection of how I feel and how I see myself. Coloured and accessorised for my mood. Some are homemade, some are second hand, and some are brand new. Although I can say, none of them cost all that much, even brand new.

Maybe that’s the bohemian in me I can’t see the point in spending hundreds of dollars on something that can be made or found for much less if you don’t need that named label in the back.

I buy DVD’s to watch, to lose myself in another world, to inspire my own imagination or purely for enjoyment.

Sure, now I have less money due to my lifestyle choices; I’ve now relegated these things well down the list and it will therefore be some time before I am buying any more. I don’t need them. They do not define me or own me.
I want to put my time and money elsewhere in my quest for my bohemian haven and heaven. Plants for the garden or a water tank are far more important to my existence. And now, my money priorities change again as I have a new life growing within me, a little baby soon to be born will need to be looked after and that is far more important than a copy of ‘Sweeney Todd’ on DVD.

I would love for a time when money means nothing (although currently we are heading towards it being worth nothing or buying next to nothing). I believe in a more co-operative existence. Bartering and helping each other to a better life. I would love nothing more than to have a community here on my own land and everyone sharing the load and getting everything they need and even things that they want. I am going to work to achieve something close to this.

I will create my own version of bohemianism in my soul and in my heart. I will learn to evolve and change. I will learn to sacrifice (as with any change or transformation there must be a loss or sacrifice of the old ways/life/existence/stuff). I will be a better me. For my sake, for the worlds sake, for my child’s sake.

There is nothing more powerful than being who you truly can be and achieving all that you have inside you. Whether it is who you are destined or fated to be means nothing if you don’t take the steps to get there.

I know I am going to stumble from time to time, going to stray from the path but eventually if I keep going I will get where I want to go. It does not matter how I got there as long as I take the journey.